Thursday, September 3, 2009

It's Been A Long Time

Hey this is just a quick update. First of all sorry to everyone that follows my blog for falling off the face of the planet. I lost my job in May and have been looking for another one its been really crazy and hectic. I used to be able to post from my job but since I lost it I haven't really been on the computer to much.

Things are really crazy the town I live in is so small that there really isn't much job opportunity here, so I have been as of late driving out of state to look for a job. And there still hasn't been much luck there. In fact I am heading out tomorrow to look for something hopefully I wil find something.

Anyway I just wanted to post an update and let everyone know what was going on. I'll try to be on more often then I am.

~Baby Girl

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

V-Day

Helluuurr. =)

So my V-Day was really good. L and I went to VA to hang out and a friend of ours came too. And then we met up with L's cousin T and his lil brother T and his girlfriend. So there was a big group of us. We went to one of the malls and then went to see Friday the 13th. I have to say it was pretty good, def had me jumping in some places. L kept joking me because I was scared lol. But it was so much fun.

So I was nervous about seeing my dad like I've said before because he has issues with L being black...however my Aunt text me yesterday and told me that we would be having pizza with my dad friday when I get in. And so I text her back to ask her if he knew that I was going to be there. And she said yes and that he wants to see me. So I'm a little surprised he wants to see me, but at the same time I'm trying not to get to happy about it just yet because I don't know if he is just being nice until I get out there and then I'm going to hear it. I don't know I'm just trying not to be to happy about it until I can see for myself how its going to go. But I have a little hope. =)

Well just an update. I fly out friday morning and I don't know how frequently I will have access to a computer so if you don't hear from me for a week thats why! =)

XOXO,
Baby Girl

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

New Car

Well I finally got a new car. Well it's not new but it's new to me and it's really nice. It's a 91 Dodge Stealth R/T for those of you that don't know thats the sports car for dodge. So it's pretty cute. Its two doors, Maroonish red and has 18 inch crome rims already on it. I will be taking pictures and posting them up here. This is honestly the nicest car I have ever had. I like it a lot. I feel so lucky that we found it and for a pretty decent price too. I'm really excited about having it. =) I took it to VA and spent the whole day up there hanging out with friends up there that I haven't seen in a while.

And as if the car wasn't great enough...I am flying out to Portland, OR to visit some of my dads side of the family whom I haven't seen in oh about 7 years or so. My dad doesn't really speak to me because he is racist and my husband is black so I haven't talked to him steady in the three years I've been married. I haven't talked to my PoPo (my granddad) in a few years but my Aunt Diana (my dad's sister) keeps in touch with me on the regular and she let me know that my PoPo is sick. So I am going out to visit. However, they have not told my dad, so I'm sure he'll be pretty surprised when I just show up out there. He will probably find out before but thats ok. I just didn't know if I should tell him. My PoPo knows now and he is excited about seeing me. And so are my Aunt and Uncle and my moms parents are like 25 30 mins away from there so I am going to drive over there. (My Aunt and Uncle own there own car lot so I get to just sign a car out for the week I'm there...pretty sweet huh?) And visit with them and the rest of my cousins and stuff. And my oldest brother lives out there so I will get to stop and see him, which should be interesting. We aren't that close but we get along. I'm excited to see people and family that I haven't seen in years. My best friend from 6th grade is out there and it's been a loooooonnnnggg time since we've seen each other. I'm so excited.

So that's my little update for now. Guess I should get back to work.

XOXO,
Baby Girl


Monday, February 9, 2009

25 Things About Me

I saw this on LuLu's page and I thought it looked like fun so I had to steal it. =)

1. I was in love with Aladdin

2. When I was younger I use to show my mom things like Vanna White, and for some reason she always had a camera.

3. I hate spiders.

4. I love to sing and I do it anywhere I can (Karaoke I heart you!!)

5. The Beatles make me happy

6. I love to read (I stayed in bed all day with the fourth book to Twilight if that says anything....)

7. I can not eat wilted spinach...I'll get sick

8. I like the nano babies and want one really bad.

9. One fourth of July my old youth group sold root beer floats and we made more then we needed so we had to drink them all...I still won't drink a root beer float.

10. I used to do Equestrian riding, and competitions.

11. I love ballet

12. Even though I'm older I love girls days and sleepovers.

13. I want to publish at least one book in my lifetime.

14. I cry when I watch Old Yeller and Were the Red Fern Grows

15. I've been getting on plane alone since I was 5.

16. If you get me really weak I never laugh the same it's always different.

17. My eyes change color based on the time of day or my mood.

18. I never really had one group of friends I stick too, I hang out with everyone.

19. I had my first kiss when I was six. It was from my first boyfriend too. And yes I even remember his name...

20. I found my first love when I was 12.

21. I had a stuffed dog that I called Dog when I was about three, my mom gave him to me for christmas I still have him.

22. Roses are my favorite flower.

23. I bungie jumped when I was 14.

24. I'll drop everything to help a friend

25. I love having lots of friends to hang out and take pictures with.

Saturday, January 31, 2009

Loves Price

I smiled into the mirror at the girl looking out at me. Yes, your different. I took in the straight black hair with carmel colored highlights, the hair that swept neatly over two piercing hazel eyes lined dark with eyeliner. The smile this girl wore was a knowing one, I will get what I want. I reapplied my lipgloss and looked again. Perfect.



Stepping out of the bathroom, the muffled noises from the party were now deafening. I walked slowly down the stairs my heels making as soft click click as they touched the hard wood. When I reached the bottom stair I saw the hungry look in the guys eyes around me. They were looking me up and down taking in my red heels and skin tight red dress, the tan line of leg and soft shoulders that the scoop neck exposed. I knew what they were thinking and laughed inside. Sorry boys, not for you...not tonight.



It didn't take long to find who I was looking for. Raven was in the front room. My breath caught for just a second, his hair was dark black like mine, his face flawless with a smile that would make any girl melt. He was fairly taller then me, which was fine with me, I always liked to look up into his eyes. I would have let my eyes wander farther from his face, down to what I knew to be a perfect body the body of a break dancer. All muscle, toned and skin that always looked sun kissed. However my view was disrupted by the small mousy girl he had tucked under his arm. Kristen Dove, Raven's girlfriend. The corner of my mouth twitched...she was no match for me, not now not after I...Don't even think about it! You did what you had to do now get what you came here for. My mind commanded, shaking my head slightly, I started towards their group.



Raven and Kristen stood with Bethany, Allen, Richard and Denis. All from my fourth period English class. I smiled as I stepped up to the group and noted the look of shock then delite in the boys eyes and confusion then envy in Bethany's. I purposely didn't look at Raven or Kristen.



"Natasha? Wow you look...uh...great." Allen floundered.

"What did you do to your hair?" Bethany asked, the ice in her voice near daggers. The corner of my mouth twitched.

"Oh just a little cut and color, I needed something new, I mean after all we are senior this year...its time for a change." With my last few words I cast my eyes down to the floor then slowly opened them staring into Ravens eyes. The musle in is jaw tightened. Gotcha. Kristen sensed his sudden mood change. She turned her big doe eyes at him.



"Are you alright baby?" She asked softly. I fought back a snarl. Everything about this stupid little girl was soft, her voice, her eyes, her mannerizms. She was so fake, no one is that tender and innocent. And image flashed in my mind and I relaxed slightly. Yes I forgot, I am a hunter now, and the weaker speices are the ones that get killed... The thought seems to right the situation for me. And I looked again into Ravens eyes.



"Raven," I purred, "You do look a little tense..do you need something to drink. Perhaps you should get you and your girl a drink." I offered smoothly. Kristen glanced at me, Raven simply nodded and walked towards the kitchen.



"That was a nice thought...I don't know what upset him but you gave him a good excuse to leave." Kristen said after a moment. Is that...is that thanks in her eyes? Ha ha just wait.



Raven returned with two soda cans one in each hand. Kristen smiled and started to reach for one, when Raven reached passed her and handed the drink to me. I applied my shocked face.



"Well thank you Raven. Um..where is the drink for your girl?" I looked him dead in the eyes.

"I just gave you your drink." He said quietly then moved to stand next to me. Everyone stared. Kristens eyes glistenly slightly. Tears. I bit back a smile.



"Raven are you ok honey?" She asked even softer then before, I almost didn't believe it was possible. Raven's response was to snake his arms around my waist and stand behind me. "Raven...?" It was almost as if she were pleading. I raised and eyebrow slightly.



"Well baby, I think you should tell her now..." I offered just as softly as she had spoken. He tightend his arms around me.

"Kristen its over...I've been..." He shook his head slightly faultering just a bit. No! I had lost some consentration by enjoying the way his arms felt around me. I flung my thoughts at him and he picked up with out hesitation. "I've been seeing Natasha for a long time and I need to be fair to her...and you. I want her, so it's over." A hush had fallin over the small group and a few other groups too that were watching the exchange. Yes! Kristen's face blanched, her heart thudding loudly, I know because I could hear it. She couldn't believe what was happening.

"Are you serious?" Bethany interjected. "Raven you and Kristen...well you just can't do this to her." Raven stood still with his arms still wrapped around me. "And you...you...I can't believe you would come between someones relationship. What happened to you Natasha you used to be quiet and not talk to anyone and you never looked like this...what have you done?" Bethany glared at me. I raised an eyebrow glaring back then let a slow smile spread across my lips.

"I did what I had to do." I repeated what I had told myself earlier, except now they seemed to ring true. "And I think its time we should go..." I turned to Raven and looked up into his eyes. "Will you take me home love?"

"Of course." He stared back into my eyes. Finally. I took his hand and lead him towards the front door. As my fingers closed on the handle I heard Kristen sobbing softly and Bethany trying to console her. My smile widened as I led Raven out into the night. I won. I have him this is it. We slid into his car and he backed out of the drive way. I tossed Kristen's purse and coat out of the window as he pulled away from the house. Once we were well on our way towards my house I asked him to pull over. The road was pitch black, it was beautiful. He pulled the car over and turned to look at me.

"Raven, you love me don't you?" I asked softly. I didn't need to ask I already knew what he was going to say, but it was important for him to say it before...

"Yes Natasha I love you." He broke into my thoughts.

"And you want to be with me forever?"

"Yes."

"Say it."

"Yes Natasha I want to be with you forever." I smiled as the last words crossed his lips. I leaned over towards him and tilted his head sideways. Forever... I sank my fangs into his neck. He didn't struggle the mind control was too strong. He simply let me, I leaned back and licked my lips. Your turn. I made a small cut on my wrist and put it to his mouth. He needed no other proding, the instincts taking over already. I released my mind control on him. There was no more need of it, I had what I wanted. Once he was done he I pulled my arm away.

"Take me home." I commanded softly. He pulled the car back out on the road and headed to my house. Once in my driveway I leaned over and kissed him.

"Come back when it's done." I said softly. He nodded, watched me walk towards the door then left.

Two nights later there was a faint scratching at my window. My heart was thudding. This is it. I have everything I wanted. I opened the window and Raven climbed in.

"Raven..." I was no longer the hunter, no longer this creature I had traded my life to be, no longer using any mind control, I was just a girl in love.

"Natasha." He replied his voice thick with emotion. "What did you do to me?" The question startled me.

"I made it so we could be together, forever. That is what you want isn't it?"

He smiled and walked towards me nodding.

"Yes Natasha." He pulled me into his arms hugging me tightly, then he leaned me slightly away from him to look in my eyes. I smiled at him. Suddenly pain exploded in my chest, I looked down as he pushed the stake farther into my heart.

"Yes Natasha I want to be with you forever..." He pulled me towards him in a swift rough movement impailing himself on the stake as well. No! Yes. I could hear his thoughts. You did this to me, you took away everything, and now I am going to give you what you want. You will be with me forever...just not in the way you thought. Forever Natasha, ha ha, till death do us part...Then everything went black.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Next Week...Hopefully...

So I have found a motor for my car and it will only cost me $100 to get it so yay...at least thats some good news. And also the guy that is fixing my car said that he should have it in by next week. So that is awesome too. Keep your fingers crossed that this all goes down without a hitch. I really need my car back. Even after it gets fixed I think that I am going to look for another car and try to trade mine in. I know I won't get much for it but at least I can try.

So today is our employee appriciation day. It used to be that we would go to VA and have a huge meeting and they would get everyone who was out of town (and that included us even though we were only an hour away) a room at the marriot for free. But this year because of how everything is going they decided to send us shirts and a little flyer to let our members know they should appriciate us and said...ok guys have fun. So its nice to not have to dress up today but I still would have loved the room instead lol. But its ok. This is nice too.

So my friend, A, her moms birthday is today so we are going to take her out and buy her some drinks. It's kind of funny because her mom is not a drinker at all so I am dying to see how this turns out. Should be interesting so I am going to buy some more batteries for my camera and capture the moments lol. Should be hilarious. =)

I am in just such a good mood today and I don't even know why. Everything is just nice. I hope that it stays that way. I like days like this... =)

~Baby Girl~

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

10 Things You Probably Don't Know About Me

1. I heart the Beatles. -- Not many people know that about me but I am in love with the Beatles. I have been for years. (How awesome is it that as soon as I finished typing this some Beatles started playing.)

2. I used to take ballet. -- I love to dance and thats something that is commonly known but few people know that I actually took ballet when I was younger.

3. I am terrified of clowns. -- When I was younger I saw It and after that clowns were never happy people to me. I have a fear that they will try to kill me...it maybe be irrational but hey it is what it is. Also linked to this fear is a fear of storm drains....watch the movie and see if you go near one again.

4. I wasn't allowed to watch The Smurfs. -- For the longest time my mom wouldn't let me watch the smurfs because the bad guy used magic. So for a long time she wouldn't let me watch it and I had to go next door to my friends house if I wanted to see it.

5. I'm a compulsive pen and notebook buyer. -- For some reason I don't know if it has to do with the fact that I am writer or if it's because my mom is an office geek. But I will just buy notebooks and pretty pens just so I can write something on it. Not even anything important just something.

6. I love bright colored shoes and matching shirts or bags. -- I love to have shoes that are an interesting color. For example I found a pair of purple shoes that match a shirt I wear to work. I just love the way bright shoes look. =)

7. Movies can make me cry. -- I'm usually the action, car chase, if someone doesn't blow up or die the movies sucks, kinda girl, however. I have been known to cry at a few movies. Where the Red Fern Grows and Old Yeller get me every time.

8. I am addicted to Twilight. -- Yes as is most of America.

9. My addiction and love for vampires is well scary... -- I am a firm believer that one day I will find a vampire and he will be awesome and he will teach me everything. And then we will be happy together. ;-) You only wish I were joking....

10. I love to put my story characters through hell but in the end they must be happy. -- There is an occasional short story where things don't work out but in the long run if I write an actual long story my characters must be happy in the end or I hate writing it. I'm trying my hardest to get over this because lets face it not everything is life is happy and handed to you.